Excruciating Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with severe pain behind a single eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe agony around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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